Forever Alone

I used to think….. How do people feel lonely? How can you feel lonely? Like… Just hang out with your friends if you do get lonely. But recently I realised that I've been feeling lonely too. Me and my school friends are nowhere near as tight as we were in the last two years. We don't even bother hanging out with each other anymore. I had a conversation with my supposedly "best" friend at school on Facebook the other day, and it felt AWKWARD. I understand how conversations are awkward in person, but how can they be awkward online? I guess it does happen with randoms but we used to be close. It felt so weird having a conversation with him online.

This happens to my badminton friends as well but for more obvious reasons, since I've quit badminton I haven't seen any of them in ages. The only non-awkward conversations I have are with my other group of friends at school, which I'm not too close with and I DON'T want to be close with anyways. And this leaves me with church friends. I never have an awkward convo online or in person with church friends, but I still don't feel like we are super tight. I mean we are close, and have DMC's and things like that but there's no one I can talk to that actually helps me out when I have a problem. They do try but they say the same things as a normal friend would say when trying to help you out.

I actually envy people who have their close friends where they can tell pretty much anything to, and friends who actually ask “How's your day?” and listen etc. etc.

MAN I WISH I HAD FRIENDS. OR a girlfriend.  ;D

Gonna be a busy as one and a half weeks, starting from tomorrow. So probs won't blog till I'm in HK :)

Goodbye :)