I am duh sorry

Hi gois,

Today at Krave we were talking about what you regret and I didn't really have anything... But when I got home I DID SOMETHING I REGRET!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Well a few days ago my friend Phillip suggested that we study together again, with some other people like we did last week, and I was like ok. But like last week I promised to catch up with some other friends and i fully forgot about it. Then today at school Phillip told me to skip art for study so I'm like yea I will. I remembered that i had to catch up with my friends but they told me TODAY that the catch up was tomorrow so I was like WHAT! i was gonna study. But I havn't seen badminton friends in forever so I told Phillip I wasn't gonna go. 

You may think its not that bad ditching my friends once in a while but the truth is, when people invite me to go to stuff I usually cbf and stay at home and my school friends get sososososososo pissed off. My friend Keenart does that as well and he's worse than me. So after Phillip spent so much time organising stuff its usually me or Keenart that doesnt go, and phillip really wants EVERYONE to hang out at least once. In three years, i think there was only one time where we all hung out and that was on Phillips birthday. 

SO, as i said, I told him I couldnt't go and this is like my 10000th time telling him that, and then this is what he said 

but we told u it was saturday

well

from now on im not organising shit anymore

not saying u dont respect it or anything but im sick of people not respecting an event when i try make one

And then after that i just felt bad. Cos he does try hard to organise stuff and a lot of people don't respect him or give him credit for doing it, and although sometimes I try to help him but I'm just too lazy. The only good thing about it is that everyone else is going so at least he will have someone to study with.

I REGRET NOT STUDYING!! but i cant ditch my badminton friends now, otherwise its like a double ditch, and Phillip will still be angry at me for promising to hang out with other people in the first place. sigh :((((

Sorry my grammars like screwed up in this post cos my brain isn't working, just wanted to share :) aight gonna study hard now

byebyebyebyebye

Palmy good times!

Hihi

Havn't blogged lately cos im duh boring.... yea todays mothers day and it was one crazy ass day but maybe blog about that another time cos I wanna talk about badminton!

So as you all might or might not know, I stopped badminton, stopped going trainings, didn't join auckland team, don't go tournaments etc etc. Okay here are some of the reasons I quit:

1. Too lazy
2. Uses up SO MUCH time and I'm yr 11 so i want to study more
3. Quite a lot of pressure when I'm in a tournament, stressful shit.
4. Everyone else is getting too good and trying so hard and i CBF >:(
5. Too lazy ( said it again cos its like the main one)

I think this was outside my room?

These are pretty legit reasons and I don't REGRET quitting, but the other day at school badminton training ( I still play for school) I lost to sam. SAM! I usually beat him 95% of the time but i lost to him 21-14. Its cos I havn't played in 5 weeks and he's been training pretty much everyday. But still, I wasn't really pissed off or disappointed, cos I was expecting in, but now he's ranked higher than me in badminton team -0-. thats actually a good thing cos I don't want to play pro people but in every team I've ranked higher than him, whether that be Auckland, Club or school. Sam if your reading this I'm sorry but its the truth i used to beat you.

Last friday, I had to play for school. Last year I was in the central A team so the games were easier and I was pro-er back then. But now that im in prems, and I'm bad at badminton, I felt like I couldn't even catch up to the shuttle and nothing was in control. Even though I was playing number 4, we were versing probably the best school in auckland. I knew this guy I was versing cos he was in my Auckland team last year and he is pretty good. Sometimes he wins and sometimes i win. But this time. I got OWNED. 31-19. :( No goods. It feels pretty sad watching everyone else who I used to be close with start getting so good. I feel pretty proud of them but now it seems like me and my friends aren't as close anymore, they've made new friends and I'm like an outsider now. But I guess thats the bad side to quiting badminton...

Palmy!

Another thing that annoys me because of quitting badminton is palmy. Everyones talking about it, how they're so excited for it and can't wait and stuff and I really miss going to Palmerston North when I play for Auckland because it is seriously fun as. Playing hardcore badminton for a week and mucking around at night. I still remember like the 2nd time I went, Daniel Hillier and I were throwing oranges and stuff at Mr Sims ( a gaaaay ass coach who made people do zumba) wall, and getting chased by Vanessa. GOOD TIMES! He was probably my best friend back when I was still motivated to play, and we were known as the pair who "caused serious concern" if we kept playing badminton, and we nearly got sent home from Palmerston North :(  But I started to stop playing as much and he's gotten really, really good. And now its awkward when I talk to him and I havn't played with him in like months. I still remember the time we played doubles together and we came 2nd in New Zealand :') good times. But now I'm not even good enough to play with him.. sigh. I deranked from 3rd in New Zealand to like 40 something now. hahahaha derank. reminds me of tetris :3 And probably the worse thing is that, apart from being weird, badminton is the only thing I am (or was) good at. Now I don't even have that. sigh as... Oh well started playing basketball, gonna try get in prems for next yr!!! add oil vincent! yay im encouraging myself!

Left: Macleans prem, Nationals. Middle: palmy 2009, Auckland team. Right: Palmy 2010, Nationals

But to all you people who still play badminton, don't quit, play hard and remember to WIN FOR AUCKLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!3$%#$%^

okbye.

Job

Hihihihi

I finally caught up with my maths :D so happy. Now I need to catch up with my english homework, I have an essay that was supposed to be due on the first week of this term but I haven't even started it yet........ And I also need to catch up on art and play more basketball. Need to get better D:

Anyways last night I ate dinner with Gary, shewa and my sister and Gary took me to krave. We were talking and he asked me if I have a dream or a job I really want to do. I've thought about this question many times before but I can never think of a job I REALLY REALLY like and other people seem to have the job sussed out. 

There are two reasons why I want to find a job i really like. The first one is so that I have a goal to work towards to at school and not just think of school as a place where I just screw around. The second is so that when I'm older, my work won't seem as a burden but more of an event where I look forward to doing everyday. 

I'm pretty sure that if I manage to think of a job I really like to do, I'd do much better at school and I'll have a goal to work towards just like everyone else :):)

Okay enough writing for today, still need to write my essay T.T

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