Studying

Notice how they conveniently put dying on the end of studying. Of course I'm not dying because I'm trying so hard studying but whenever I think about how screwed I am for exams I die a little on the inside. I finally figured why I'm writing much blogs lately because it's a good form procrastination. I should really start dying because I'm studying so hard though gonna start that tomorrow :) 

It's sad how even though I have no school I still have to wake up so freaking early. I have English tutor at 9 on tuesdays and Thursdays and on Wednesday I have orthodontist appointment at 9 and maths tutor at 10. So much joy honestly.

BUT Allgood I'll be "studying" with friends this Friday and watching a movie to release my stress on saturday so looking forward to that heheh. 

This is a short as post haha I wasn't even planning to write a post just so bored felt like procrastinating. Omg still have a lot of work to do and it's 11.53 PM!!! Sigh and I have to wake up early :( can't even get 11 hours of sleep gawd dammit

Okay seriously needa go. Now. 

Bye bye 

Vincent ^.^

Our time, gods time

Haha tried to copy the title of today's sharing at connect, doesn't sound right though :( anyways todays sharing related to me like, a lot. Hahahahaha might've been on purpose but it was good. When group leaders asked me what I wanted most right now I just said good exam marks, new phone etc. but of course I wanted something else. Something I would've said to everyone if our group was really close, like it should be........ But it isn't.

ANYWAYS I agree with the sharing that I need to wait for things I want and let god give it to me at the right time. But it is so so so so hard. I'm the type of person that usually tries 100% to get something and when I don't get it I get maaaad (if I actually really really want it). So this task is especially hard for me, cos i really really want it now. but I guess it's the same with a lot of people. Oh well I'll wait till the right time cos I don't want to screw gods plan up eheheh. I wish church was a place that you could share anything without having to worry about them spreading it cos tbh church people give great advice and actually makes me feel better talking to them but just need the trust Hahahaha.

I guess you need someone to start telling people in the group their secrets though so the other people actually feel you trusting them and might tell something to the group in return? But too bad I'm not starting it muahahahaha

Ok that's all I wanted to write about, gonna wait wait wait :D

Okbye

Everything :)

Hello :D

Updating my blog so much heh.

When I first started this blog I liked having a lot of viewers and felt nice when people read my blog, but recently I've found that whenever I want to write something that I really want to tell, I think of my viewers first and write according to what I want them to know, and what not to know. It's pretty annoying tbh because one of the main reasons for me making a blog was to express my feelings and what I'm going through but now I needa hide things -___- which is why in my last post I told you guys to message me if you want to know more. Well now it's too bad you guys who I trust don't get the full story in this blog cos it seems that im way too popular ;D haha and Ian in not directing this at you I didn't really mind the truth and dare thing, it was fun :)

Anyways... The first thing I want to talk about is parents. My mum is getting more and more strict and I have no idea why -.- but lately I've found out that I don't get angry as easily, and when she yells at me I just nod and listen and walk away. Which pisses her off even more :D

The second thing I want to talk about is church church church. I have gotten closer to some people at church and I realized that the smiles we see all the time at church are just masks of what they really feel inside. I mean of course they want to go church, for god and stuff but it's the PEOPLE in church which is making them feel like this. Ive spoken to quite a few people and they all feel the same way.  Hmmm this church needs some fixing D: it's still a great church though :D with cool people who just sometimes does the wrong thing. But I guess I'm not perfect either so I really can't judge...

And there was a third thing but nah won't say it, it's a secret ;) hehe

Sorry if there is any spelling mistakes cos I'm typing this on iPod. Stupid autocorrect

If you read up till here then thanks for reading and not falling asleep :) hope you enjoyed my rant hehe

Goodbye :D
Vincent xoxo